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2011-02-20T22:35:00.002+08:00

人活在这个世界上是否开心或是伤心?

有时当那个人不在的时候你才后悔,已经太迟了.

那就是我, 一个永远都会感到后悔的人.

每当她们还在是,我不会珍惜. 她们付出的关怀和爱,我都不当一回是.

一个一个将要离开,我的心开是感觉一点舍不得. 好痛好痛!

这就是我的生活吗? 一个长长感觉到后悔的痛苦....

我不会讲话,也不懂得着摸样发出我的内心的感受....

你走了....我该这么办?

痛

2010-09-24T01:18:00.002+08:00

当你喜欢的人已有了他的爱人，你为一可以坐的是祝福他们。

心痛的我往往只想到别人的幸福，而不是自己。

喜欢一个人，而不属于你的感觉好痛苦啊！

我只想喜欢他的感觉慢慢的消失。

现在，我只能祝福他们永远幸福，快乐。:'(

2010-08-11T13:31:00.003+08:00

Today is POPO's Birthday! i just shock her with a sms. Few minutes later, she call me and say i am very guai, can remember her birthday. :)

We chat for awhile, hearing so much fun she had. Everyday having lots of event, learning chinese, english and singing Karaoke at her community. She is also doing community service every thursday. She sound like having a full of joy in her life. By chatting with her, i feel that she is now living very happily.

Listening to her laughter, and imagine her smile when she talk. She added on that her son and daughter just celebrate her birthday by bringing her to restaurant to eat. Wohooo... i am very happy for her. :)

婆婆，生日快乐！ :)

2010-07-11T23:12:00.003+08:00

我不知道我是不是还喜欢你。

每当我一想起你，那个感觉好不一样。

明知道没有结果，可是还是放不下。

好难好难忘掉我们成进度过的快乐时光。

好久没有和你说话了。你还好吗？

几时我们还会在见面呢？

好想在听到你的声音。和你聊心事。

可是我想。。。这已经没有可能了。

请更我说，我是不是还喜欢你？

2010-05-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

At about 10am, me and da jie met in school to go collect our graduation attire from the 'Our Space@ 72'. After that, we than accompany shin to go for her interview at Braddle before we process our shopping for graduation. However, in the mid of shopping. It was a very co-incident that i see him. My heart was not filled with joy, but jealousy and hurt. He was with a girl, they were eg very close.

After that moment, my mind cant stop thinking. Through out the whole shopping, i become moody. I doubt that i have anymore chance and should give up. We both come from the different background, different learning. i think i'd been too naive for the past few year. Where will there be a person really love u? You are not pretty, no talent, no hope. Who will want to be with u? However for her, she is rich and they both are as close as u ever know. Where do u think you will stand?? Stop dreaming!! U are just too little girl.

Work hard! Become a Bachelor! Become rich and save the staving children! Work until the death....

you are already not yourself... no more!

2010-05-02T22:09:00.002+08:00

A mixture feeling, that i dont know how to express...

It just take time to dissolve...

I just hope that Zhen Xuan will be very very happy living in his mansion over in the Heaven.

He is the strongest and best vocalist.

Zhen Xuan, even thought i only had a little memories of being with you in Worship Team, but you are always living a great memories and you happy/smilling face will always be kept in my mind.

Rest in Peace. :)

2010-04-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Fight!!

Fight!!

Fight!!

2010-04-20T03:21:00.001+08:00

我好想念阿公！！ :'(

2010-04-12T01:04:00.003+08:00

Days of sorrow....

Emotional break down..

Depress........

Dream fade away......

Bucket of tears.....

i not sure if we are doing the right thing or we are just playing on each others.

a first time ever breakdown in tears.

i not sure if its because of u.

but i know if this goes on, i maybe the only one that get hurt. as it is already so..

i know God had place many hope in me.

i dont know about my emotions anymore..anymore....

梁洁媚已经死了。。。

2010-03-05T03:52:00.002+08:00

3:52am

i just finish designing the Singapore 2010 Youth Olympic Games photo design. this project is a 'last minutes' work i received. However, just so surprise that i can finish up 2 different design from 12am till now.

slacking for awhile, i look back at the photos we took before.. i smile. even thought we may not be together, but the memories still last with happiness. You may not notice it, but its real. Hopefully, sooner i will forget about u. It just take time as what had happen few months ago.

ok! the dawn is awaken soon. GTG and sleep! Gd Night!

4:01am
Refuge - City Harvest Church

2010-03-03T01:18:00.002+08:00

最爱-CHC

我爱因祢已先爱我得生因为祢的付出
活着因祢舍下生命原谅是因祢的怜悯

祢将自己全给了我宝血洗净我羞愧
让我重新得生命愿一生能更多有祢

我的最爱永远都是祢
生命气息因祢而延续
爱的喜乐这世上无人能夺去
与祢永恒约定 (耶稣)

祢爱降临祢爱降临
祢爱降临充满我

I just love the chinese version of this song. It is very nice and meaningful.

2010-03-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

12:27am 03032010

Finally, after 2 days of video filming under a 35Degree Celsius. The shooting is finally over. The first days was super exhausted. We were at Kranji War Memorial for some scene shoot. And the weather were super hot! Everyone is having sun burn, especially the crew who are unable to rest much.

However during our second shoot at Lower Pierce Reservoir. At first, all things went smoothly. But when we change to the jungle scene, we were being chase out by the NPark. Lucky we than drove out to another nearest place to finish up the film.

Overall, the 2 days of film i actually learn a lot from them. As a assistance director, i know about the TC-In, Color Code.. and all those that is important. eg how to do different angle scene. It a new learning experience that i did not learn in my 3years in poly.

however, i really hope that the feeling will fade away after this 2 days of being together having fun. I not sure if its a right feeling i should have, but i just dont want to get hurt eg what had happen few months ago.

leg numb~~ body sun burn~~

2010-02-18T00:06:00.002+08:00

once again, why am i having that feeling back??? I had try to forget this feeling for the past few months, and its really hard and painful. But why? why it come back again?

Can relationship problems just leave me alone?? i just want to live normally. I just dont know what my mind is thinking. Am i doing the right things? When i feel down, u show me somethings and make me happy. But i know, you do not know i am feeling unhappy. But why? Why is it this certain time?

However, thank you marcus.Even you do not know, but everytime when i am feeling down, ur conversation will make me cheer-up. its really very relaxing talking to u. All kinda of crapping jokes, laughter..

just want to forget it~~

2010-02-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

this year is just a unhappiness in my life. tears and heart broken. However, i just hope after tonight, things will gonna change. Life will be better in my family. Hope everything goes well.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! & HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!

13th - unhappiness
14th - hope for a better life

2010-02-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

Again, today woke up late for school. However, its still i am the earliest to reach. Most of the others were at home. At school having meeting with shi hua on skype. About 3plus, i left school. Went to PS to meet daryl to purchase the movie tickets. 6.20pm, david came and join us for the movie. We all watch Avatar 3D. Hmmm to me, there wasnt a lot of 3D graphic. It wasnt that impressive as what it should be.

Now..... 12am, i gonna chiong my report!!! ELSE ShiHua gonna kill me tomol!!!

BYE~~~ ZZzzzzZZ....

2010-01-30T15:25:00.002+08:00

slept for almost 14hrs yesterday. Body aching, leg swollen, finger numb. Anger release on yesterday's training. The sandbag was a good in a way to release my anger. Hhaha~~ Anyway had fun with marcus during the training and supper. Did a lot of duet kicking. Train momentum and speed. Oh man.. i need to start my flying sidekick and jumping backtrust already. Miss out this year IVP competition. Keep on training for National Competition. CHIONG AR!!!!!

2010-01-29T18:49:00.002+08:00

at last the anger break out! all the things i say to him just want him to be optmistic, but he treat my words as a noise to him. We start to quarrel. Chasing me out. What had i done wrong? All i want is to have him back to the same person again. I feel like wanting to give him a few slap and walk away from him forever. When i quarreling with him, my heart cry out. Controlling of the tears. I HATE HIM!! All i want is a happy family back, but what u think of is to make the whole family vex and heart break. Why am i still so stupid to accompany u when i can just go home and sleep? you just dont feel glad or happiness. You think its easy for us to keep on having have the faith and energy to cheer you up/ talking to u about all the possible things? I just feel like giving up on you!:'(

anger and hate :'( :'(

2010-01-29T16:15:00.003+08:00

Today was another super tiring day.
Was doing the report since yesterday, and than i caught a flu. I than took a cold medicine from Jing Hui, went to sleep at 7am.

At about 8.30am, JH came to wake me up. I faster rush to get a quick bath and zoom out to school for 9am meeting with Mr Edward. During the meeting, my mind is like shutting off. I keep trying to stop myself from dozing off. Until when the meeting end, i than rush my way to Mandai to attend a funeral.

1 hrs later at about 2pm, i took the HoGc shutter bus to paya lebar with Rebecc, Min Qian and Ting Ting. When we arrived at paya lebar, we took the train together. Some are going home, some lunch.. while me, heading to SGH to look after my him.

Now i am at SGH, i dont know what to do. Everytime when i talk to him, i had to control my anger, forget about the hate. All i want is to care for him, but i feel the rejection. Whenever this feeling come, i will remember about the unhappiness memorable that he had done to me. Why am i here?? I should be at home getting my rest and having my meals. Am so hungry since the morning and only took 1/4 of a kaya bread. I felt so tired!!! zzzzZZzz~

2010-01-28T20:35:00.003+08:00

A very big thank you to the people who sms me and giving me care and concern. Eg Pastor, Marcus, Zhan, Wendy, Shi Hua

Especially a very big thank you to Pastor, who spoke to me and console me when i am in the hospital yesterday. Thank you Pastor CJ! :)

To Shi Hua, thanks for ur observation and read my blog. I am sorry that i wont be able to help u and jo. But i will be there for u all when you are feeling down. Even in this moment i cant help u both, but one day i will be able to. :)

Even thought i know its quite hard for me to get let the hurts and anger fade off. i will be strong.

Finally, thanks God for making the operation a successful one. :)

2010-01-28T03:04:00.003+08:00

Today was a super tiring day.. After meeting Mr Edward to show our Prototype, i went back home to get some new clothes for the stay overnight at the loft. However, i than receive a sms from my mum that he is going to have an operation in 1hrs time. At that certain moment i wasnt sure what to do. Hurts and anger are still in my heart. He is now being transfer to the isolation ward.

While waiting for the bus, i tried to control my tears. At that certain moment, i was unable to explain what my heart and mind was thinking. He is the person i hate much, but i am still rushing down to see him.

When i reach the ward, i controlled my anger on him. But keep on encouraging him to live on. I tried my best to talk to him nicely even thought he is asking me to leave. My mum and i than waited from 8pm to 12am for the nurse to sent him to proceed to the operation room.

While i am walking behind his bed to the op room, my heart start to tears. I pray that he will come out safe, as this is the fifth op he undergoes.

Seating with my mum outside the operation waiting room, we start to quarrel about the solution after he is discharge. Agreement...Disagreement.... I just feel that i had to stop uni to take care of him. Even thought if i continue uni, i was so afraid i wont be able to concentrate. Decision still a pending.

After hours later, he came out from the op room. Back to the isolation room, when he see me, i got the scolding for staying and wait for his op to finish. However this time round, i just keep silence. As i know once i speak, it will be anger and tears. After few minutes, i than sent my mum back home and continue my journey to school loft. In my mind, i was just afraid the same situation will happen like the previous op. Having days in his own world. In his own imagination. I just hope that this wont happen, as its really tiring to go into his world and bring him out. Hope he will be fine tomorrow, and able to gain back his courage and start walking.

:'(

2009-12-29T02:43:00.004+08:00

Hillsong-It's Your Love

I just feel that this song is really great. It touches my heart. Just want to share with everyone who read his blog. ENJOY! :)

Verse 1:
Upon the hill on Calvary
He came from Heavens throne
Our fallenness and mercy meet
Where blood and water flow

Verse 2:
What grace divine what selflessness
That Christ would bear the weight
Our proof is scarred on hands that bled
That we were worth every nail

Chorus:
And all the praise and glory to God
We sing Hallelujah sing Hallelujah
For the King has carried the cross
He is risen from the grave

Verse 3:
Beyond the tomb to holy skies
He rose in victory
And bridged for us the great divide
His life is our liberty

Bridge:
Its Your love
Its Your love
Its Your love
That has saved me

Its Your blood
Its Your blood
Its Your blood
That has cleaned me

Bridge:
Oh-Oh Woah Woah

2009-12-25T03:39:00.002+08:00

Christmas Eve 24th December 2009

Woke up in the afternoon at 1pm, feeling so bored at home. Nothing is there for me to do. Initially is to meet JH to BBTC for enrollment. But wait for the past whole night, not having any reply message from him. Feeling so Piss off! However, life still goes on...

Switching on my television and felt asleep while watching Otok. At about 5.30pm, i went to prepare myself to go to RN for christmas countdown celebration. It was awesome to see the Czoner organise this event. Eg Zhen xuan, clement, debra... they are so young yet having a great mind of preparing this big event. Nevertheless, the food are delicious. Of course, it was done by our best cheif, Aunty Elanor (Pastor's mum). Her food is aways mouthing dripping. During the celebration, there were also some games, eg Can you remember the lyrics, Dance...

We also watch Slumdog Millionair before we celebrate the countdown. We also open an Spliking Juice that i brought. Everyone is enjoying and taking lots of photos. After the whole celebration and cleaning up of place. The Worship Team start to having their practise for the next day serivce. While sulin and me was talking at the staircase. It was a long chat and counciling.

Everyone than got out of church at 3am to go back home for some rest.

Lastly, i will like to thanks sulin for counciling me. And i hope Ting is doing fine at home too.

2009-12-22T01:21:00.002+08:00

A Memoriable Day

11am, woke up and go to school for graduation showcase submission. After that had lunch with Jing Hui. During lunch, we both are keep on talking about some relationship stuff and many things in life.. After that about 5plus, ee jia came to my school and we took bus to her house. On the way home, we were talking alot. I cant believe that we are meeting after such a long period of separating from different country. Anyway, went to her house to play some piano duet and had dinner. After that, we went to vivo for some dessert. However, my inital plan was to have some chat by the seaside, but.... things did not turn in the right way. While on the way to vivo, Jian Long was keep on asking about where we are. And at the end, he came to find us at Secret Recipt. I dont know if i did the right things to let the both of them meet.

However, after the dessert Jian Long sent us back to Jia's house. I than went back to her house to make 'Tang Yuan'. About 10plus, we went down to the playground to continue our chat. Until it rain, we went up to level 28 and seat down. Spending 2hrs talking and talking about relationship and familyhood. I feel that it had been very long since we both seat down and chat for so long. Really apperciated the night and very memoriable.

2009-12-20T23:24:00.004+08:00

OMG he is handsome!!!

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At last!! at Last!!! Jia is finally back in Singapore! woOhooo... however when she reach singapore, she left for malaysia. :( Today was a boring day. I woke up at 10plus and go to Steven's house to do some photoshop stuff. Reach back home in the afternoon, staring at my computer doing nothing. Sometimes, i just feel that life is getting more and more boring. Never fail, whenever i am bored or emo, i will always think of having a dog with me. Sometimes, its better to have a pet with you than having a relationship.

Relationship is so complicated! Sometimes when u dont know what he want or in anyways, sure there will be an unhappiness. I always have a dream house that is by the seaside. Working at the bar/cafe at the beach. Having a dog to walk with everyday after my work. Its all just a dream.

Asking myself, what i really want? Not having a good figure, i can only think of solo. Had been asking myself, what can i really do?? I am not good in anythings. aHhhhhh~~~ why am i so different?

2009-12-11T21:37:00.002+08:00

2weeks after being discharged from the hospital. Today, he is admit back again. During that two weeks, the whole family had to adjust our time to stay at home and accompany him. Everyone is so worry about him, but he just only think of himself. Not doing any exercise, but just seating down there for hrs.

Just dont know what he is thinking. Perhaps things are changing. Day by day he is getting thinner and look older. Now he is like as skinny as a bamboo stick. I just cant believe my eyes.

I wasnt sure what will happen next, as i am really tired of talking and explaining to him about his illness. From being hopeful to hopeless.

Mini viva had just over, now i am concentrating more on earning money for my income. Had been skipping schools for work for the past few days. However, i know that i will still need to brush up my school work. When will i earn enough money? Can i be a great successful businesswomen when i grow up? Will my health get worst than i will die early? EmoOoooOOoo~~~~~

2009-11-19T15:29:00.003+08:00

whY why wHy?? what is going on??
how come my FYP group is like being control?
i wasnt sure if i am doing the right things or not?
i want to try my best to help but it seems like i am doing the wrong things.
are we thinking of different things? different ideas? i dont want just being control and not pushing our litmit.
how wish what i am doing now is being a kindness. Hope there isnt any misunderstanding.

haiz... super stress up with this and that. Dad is still in hospital, dont know how much money still need to spend. School is coming to an end, and now so many things happen. Seeing my partner feel so stress up, i dont know whats more i can do.

Can anyone just tell me what should i do??

2009-11-01T20:47:00.002+08:00

8:49pm

Was at home the whole day. Dazying around the house, feeling something missing. Eat, Sleep, House work. Did not feel like going out of house. My mind is fill with fustration. Finding for peace. I hate him! A lier for months or even years, i am speechless by what he had done to us. I wonder why am i living in this place full or hurts.

Qiang birthday is coming soon. I do not know how to celebrate for him or i should not even go out with him. I afraid of many things gonna to turn out badly. During this few months, i had been thinking alot. I had neither mood in doing my school work, nor waking up to go school. I just wanna peaceful life. Living by the seaside, listening to music of the sea.

How i wish great things will happen. But... i had no faith in myself. Loner loner loner..

9:00pm

2009-10-28T22:25:00.001+08:00

VEX!!!
FUSTRATION!!
KILL MY BRAIN!!
BRING ME OUT OF THIS WORLD~~~~~ :'(

2009-10-22T10:45:00.002+08:00

10:45am

Yesterday, i woke up at 11am feeling super tired. I drag my feet walking to the bus stop and get myself to school. I than spend $20 on making the student pass, just for the sick of the attendance taking.

After school, i went down to SGH to visit my dad again. Feeling to tired, i am speechless with my parents quarreling about my dad health. I thought yesterday he will be able to discharge from the hospital soon, instead of having good new he had to take a scan of his stomach. As the doctor afraid that he might have some blood cord or injury that cause him in low blood. I wasnt sure what is going wrong, but my mum is trying to convain my dad on taking the scope(which will be clearer) than having an X-ray scan.

Because of my dad stubornness, more and more money had to be spend on his childishness. thinking that he had lots of money and time to stay in the hospital. however, this dont only affect he himself, but the whole family that is worrying about him.(*which he think that there is no need to be worry of*)

I dont know what is in his mind. But i only can hope that he will recover soon and no more other illness.

10:57am

2009-10-21T00:28:00.002+08:00

11:15pm

today is the 2nd day of school start. Am i am super tired. On monday night, i went to sleep at 11.30pm and than try to wake up at 7am. But in the end, i wake up at 8am. Went to school with tiredness, i sit in the studio and stare at the computer.

In the afternoon, went to have lunch eat cha kuay tiao with my groupmate. When we went back to the sound studio, so suay that mr edward come in to the studio and want us to do a cleaning up. All the Monitors and instruments were being shift to the incubation lab. And Zhi Hao had to wipe the windows. After cleaning the studio, i started to feel something wrong with my stomach. Than while going back home, i ran to the atrium toilet and have diarrohea. I took a cab back home with steven. Feeling so sick and restless, i took a nap and had diarrohea for 3times. I than reaslise that my health is getting worst. My illness is eg getting worst. But who cares, haha... just take on the medicine and continue to stay alive! :)

Hopefully tomol will get better, as i today did not go to visit my dad.

12:49am

2009-10-19T01:25:00.004+08:00

1:26am

Woke up at about 1.30pm, i went to wash up and take my lunch. at about 2pm, i took a train down to SingPost for HoGc service with Rev Dr Ps Kong. During the praise and worship, i saw valerie playing on the keyboard. Wow, she is really great in playing. I hope i can improve and be like her. Playing the music in the house of God and healing people with my music.

Anyway the sermon was super great and amazing. It is like a life changing experience. Ps Kong preach about Job's life. Of how he put his trust in God and even his life ruin down from being a super rich and happy family person, become a poor,all family member die in just one day and his body start having some illness. But he is still having his trust in God. How much challenge satan had place in his life, he still did not hold on to any blameness in God, but praising God on what he had done for him.

During the sermon, i learn not only about trust but also obedient. He told us that Obedient and Endurencing is the crowing living of maturity. Its not easy to be obedient and having endurence. We must have perseverence -> character -> hope -> vision. Isnt it if we have this all, we are living a life of rightousness? having our faith in Him who bring us to where we are.

After service at about 6plus, we went down to the kopitiam to had dinner. While me and ting were chatting as we had our lunch. At about 7pm, i leave the place as i need to go SGH to visit my dad. The journey wasnt as easy as before, as i realise my leg seems to get worst during walking. However, i feel glad to see my dad getting better after his last operation.Praise God! I than sat there to accompany him until 10plus than i leave home as the road is kinda of dark and quiet at night.

1:42am
*Light of the City*

2009-10-14T01:36:00.002+08:00

waking up late in the moring, i quickly took a quick bath and ran out to Alexandra Hospital for my Pysio appointment. Reaching there panting, i rest on the seat wait for my therapist to call for my name. Due to my ankle injury, i was only able to do 2 different stretching.

after the pysio, i went down to office to had lunch with delbert as its his last day in the office. We went down to bugis to had pastamania before we return back to office and continue our project. Reaching back to the office, i open out my portfolio project and do not have any idea for me to start my move. So i open up the ae file, trying on everything that i can do.. but in the end still did not get what i want. so i realise that there are much more for me to learn on video editing.

at about 7pm, i leave the office with delbert as he need to attend cg meeting while i need to go to the hospital to visit my dad. Finally after days of worries, my dad finally awake. however there are many medicine for him to consume. Its like 10 tablet at each time. But i am happy that he is awake and recovering. Hopefully he is able to discharge soon and able to walk smoothly. However, he might need to change to a community hospital which is much further to my house. OMG, how is my family able to go visit him daily. oh man... there are another of amount that need to spend on the hosptial bill. MoneY monEy moNey!!!!

how i wish i am able to earn money to help my family, which i should at this age. if i am talented it will be great.

2009-10-13T01:11:00.003+08:00

11am, i woke up on my bed, getting myself prepare to get to school as i need to help out my friend to borrow out cameras for her birthday shoot. Reach school at about 1pm, went straight to get some present for sj as its her birthday and i did not had anytime to get a present for her yet. Initially, thought of getting her a chocolate which contain wine, but its all sold out. So in the end, got her a mint chocolate.

After getting the present, went back to my sound studio to wait for my friend to arrive from makan place. After collecting the cameras from the resource room, i than realise that i am gonna be late for my podiatrist appointment which is at 3.30pm. I than grab my guitar in the sound studio and rush all the way down to alexandra hospital. After the appointment, it than rain heavily. I borrowed an umbrella from the hospital and took a cab back home. Before i get prepare to meet sj at 6.30pm in City Hall, i quickly mob the floor in my house and ran out as i am late.

Reaching city hall at 6.30pm sharp, i met keren to get a cake for sj as today is her birthday and i feel so sorry that can accompany her in the afternoon. However, i tried to make her as happy as possible during our dinner at The Manhattan (Fish Market). It was an awesome place, because the atmosphere wasnt that noisy. We slowly order one food after another while waiting for sulin and ting ting to arrive.

After our dinner and cake suprise, Jia wen, sj, keren, joices and me went to erski bar to chill out while also waiting for shaifu and benny to come for the night celebration. Over at the bar, it was a different feel. In the beginning, we went to sit down at some normal temperature corner. However after 10minutes, we shift to a room which is freezing. We than start throwing the ice on everyone.. but it was great as i can see sj is enjoying herself and also being sabotage by shaifu. The drinks was ok, but i can feel my taste like the panadol that i took when i am a kids.

Now kinda of abit giddy, maybe is because of medicine + alcohol. haha.. However, i hope sj will enjoy her birthday celebration.

Today did not go down to visit my dad, hopefully tomorrow after work will be able to rush down and visit him. Hope he is getting better now.

shall sleep early today, tomorrow morning still have psyio treatment. :(

2009-10-10T23:41:00.003+08:00

3 weeks had past... its going to be the beginning of the 4th week. My heart sank seeing my dad daily laying on the bed in the hospital. I did not want to tell anyone about my emotions, but to keep it in my heart. I did not want to trouble anyone as i know they cant help me much. :'(

3 weeks ago, seeing my dad talking and having a opimistic mindset being admintted into the ward. Until now, his health is getting worst. After his recent Major Operation, his mind started to get drown off frequenily. Everyday, i will see my mum go to visit him after her work. Helping him to wipe his face, talk to him so that he wont get bored. While my brother will go to visit him once in awhile after his school.

The atmosphere at home is dull. Everyone is having a bad emotion since the he went to hospital. Financial problem had come across into my mum's mind. As after my dad had discharge, he will need to stay at the community hospital for Psyiotherapy, which also cost a bomb to my family. What is more is that, he still need to undergoes the Daycare Treatment after his Psyio.

I wasnt know what to do, but my mind started to think of getting out of my studying life. As there is a need for me to go out and earn money to support the family. Nowadays, i had been trying to save money for myself to pay up the bill for my hospital leg pysio treatment. But i wasnt sure how much i can save so that i had enough for every treatment.

Day by day, my dad health is getting worst, after his 4th operation, nowadays he start to talk in his own world. His eyes wasnt able to open, he do not consume any food but keep on telling us that he is already at home and he still went to work. It was really difficult for the family member to ask him to take his medicine. Sometimes, he telling us that he is flying in his chair. Or he saw many of his old friends, heaven and hell came to look for him. I wasnt know what to do at this moment. But just to keep my mum accompany in the hospital, else she will be alone without anyone help.

This few days had been a tough time, my health is getting worst. And i can tell that my mum is feeling very restless and troubled in her mind. Than today, i saw my mum trying to pray for my dad. I wasnt know what was going on, as she asked me to go out of the ward.

However for me, i will pray to God that he can save my dad. On yesterday while i am on the journey to school, i remember that Zhan said before, if i wasnt know what to pray just remember 'PART' = Pray in tonges, Admint, Repent, Thanksgiving. While thinking of this word, i just started to open my bible and read about thanksgiving. I flip through Pslam6 and 11, and i pray to God about the Thanksgiving of my dad.

And on today, at service over in the new place. Pastor preach to us about thanksgiving. And this give me a confimation of praying to God about thankgiving is what i need. So i still during every moment in the worship i pray to God of thankfullness that He had given to me.

I really hope that my dad will really wake up from his coma very soon. And hopefully by next week he will be able to discharge from the hospital. Every of my family member wont fall sick. I wont need to go hospital for my leg treatment. My mum will not be restless everyday. I also wish that my family financial problem will be solve. there will be enough money for us to spend, for me to continue my studies. I hope everythings will come true with God help.

2009-09-26T01:21:00.004+08:00

Vex Vex VEX~~~

Emotional BREAK Down~~

PEACEFUL Life~~

ReSt~~~

DeATh~~

:'(

2009-09-19T04:26:00.002+08:00

4:00am

17 September 2009

Woke up at about 1pm and realise that i am totally late. As i need to meet Rodney aka MooO~~ at Cineleisure at 1pm. I jump out of my bed, picking up Rodney's call and apologise to him that i will be late. Took a very fast bath and rush my way out to Dhoby Ghaut to meet him. Finally at 2pm i reach the place. We went to Bossine to get his pants and also took our lunch at a Japanese Restaurant before proceeding our way to Cineleisure to watch The Ugly Truth.

The Movie was super nice and comedy. It was a dating show and the story was indeed very funny. After the movie, we went to shop around Cineleisure for guan zhou's hat. But all of what we want was very expensive. So we than walk all the way to Far East Plaza to see if we are able to get a nicer and cheaper hat for him as his birthday is coming very very soon. Finally.... after walking and walking in the shopping centre. We manage to find a shop which sell only hat. And we Got the one we wanted! Its kind of cheap and nice. Rodney keep on testing and testing on the hat to see if it look nice. While for me? I just play around with the hat. At about 8pm, we left far east and went back home.

18 September 2009
Woke up at about 1pm and went out with my mum to meet my aunty and cousin for lunch at the Imperial... Restaurant(at suntec city). As it was my mum's birthday. During the lunch, we order quite a lot of ala cart until i cant eat finish. After the lunch, they than went to Carfore to see if they are able to get anything. While i went back home to get some rest before leaving at 6pm to meet my poly mate for dinner. We went to Cathy Aston and it took us 1hrs of waiting. There were a total of 9 people attend the dinner, all of them are my friend who went with me to Tioman Trip. After the dinner, at about 10plus, while all of my friends went back home. I went to meet shai, libin and other friends for clubbing. As the next day is whit's birthday.

At first we thought of going St James, but than we end up at Robilly(at clerk quay). The place was kinda of crowed with teenagers and some oldies. What is the most amazing is that, it was my first time seeing a 'wolf' trying to get hook on one of my friend. it maybe a new experience for me to know about clubbing. :) Overall not bad. but the music can be better.

We left about 3am while whit and libin went to The Areana to continue clubbing with some working college. Maybe next will try St James Ladies Night.

4:49am

2009-09-12T14:21:00.003+08:00

hAPpy birthday kiTtYleOng!

Waking up feeling restless at 9am, i jump up of my bed realising that i was late for breakfast with Kohli. I rush out to the bath room, toOk a fast bath, change my bags and went straight out to NUS bus stop to meet qiang. However, in the end we reach the place early. While waiting for both koh li and zhi yong to arrive at NUS. Both me and qiang were stoning at NUS Central Library. Laughing at the book drop which seems design by an any carpenter.

Weather start to get worst as it started to rain in a sunny day. Thinking of getting to the new arts canteen to have our breakfast. Koh Li than brought us to the business canteen instead. I tried on the super yucky $2 wanton mee for my first and last time. While others ordered western food. At the canteen, i met millon, who is my senior batch in mma. We than talk about the path to get to university.

12pm, koh li went back to class for lecture. While qiang, yong and me went out to town, as i need to buy birthday present for my brother. Walking from lucky plaze to takashimaya than to far east. At last at far east, i manage to find the shirt which look nice for my brother. Qiang than help me to try on different clothing to see if it look nice. At the end, about 4plus, i bought 2 present. 1 for shaiful and 1 for my brother. After that, we walk to cineleisure as yong is meeting his friend for Pool. Than for me and qiang, we both went back home to rest and dinner.

7pm, sj and benny brought me out to have dinner at Pomo(near PS). We ate at a Japanese Kopitiam, and also went to the near by Rocho Mr Beam to have 'You Tiao' and Beam Cub. After our dinner, we took a cab down to Zouk to meet shaifu, Joyc and qiang. I am very glad that they all accompany me to celebrate my birthday even thought i am feeling emotional unstable. Koh li still meet me outside zouk to pass me a birthday card even though she dont want to enter in. While for qiang, i am also happy that he spend his time out with me even thought he is tired after yesterday whole days outside for xiao zhou farewell. I will like to thanks sj for such a planning and i know u are trying to make me happy yesterday. Thank you so much! :) Thank you for such a lovely present you guys gave me. Its really very cute and adorable. :D

2009-09-11T02:37:00.002+08:00

10/09/2009
2:30am
today about about afternoon, meet qiang, zhou,tecklim(my first time meeting him) out to Comex09. reach cityhall control station at 2pm and waited for them for 1hrs plus. realising that my emotion starts to change but still endurable after met qiang at 3pm when he finally arrive.

at about 3plus, we started to walk to comex fair to get the stuff zhou want. around 4plus, shi hui than met us at the fair. We than walk round and round the convension centre for the next 3hrs. It was than until 7pm, we went to Auston to have our dinner. that is the time when bunny arrive after settlling out on our company document.

Dinner was great. The guys were all talking about their NS jokes while me and zhou is laughing. Everyone seems like warning zhou, who are going to enlistment in few hrs time, what he should look out for in tekong.

After our dinner, we than walk back to the convension centre to purchase zhou's MP3 from cheryl. The mp3 was quite nice plus they give him a soft bear. which is super cute. After purchasing the mp3, we than went back home as everyone is very tired.

Today actally i met quite few of mma friends. ( Xue Li[starhub],Samantha&Cheryl[Sony])

However, things start happen when reach home. Since my emotion was still very unstable, anythings that strike a broken heart causes it worst. So, when i reach home.. my family started to nag at me about me not thinking before sending phone to repair. quarrel get worst after few minutes. My emotion started to get worst and feel like crying.

Thinking back that this few days, my mind had been thinking alot. Everytime i will try to tell myself that whatever i am thinking will come true. But it did not.... Even when i try to ask someone out. It seems so difficult. I feel so tired of keep on asking someone out who dont even treasure it. I am really very tired of living. What else can i do, other than end off my life earlier? Sometimes i just realise, will you get back what you sow? If you help others when are feeling down, will they also help u back? Is there really a true friends?

It really comes to a end that, living in this world doesnt help me much. But just keep on giving and giving. Tomorrow will be a day where i hope we can spend time together. But it just did not happen. I really regret pushing away the other appointment i plan eariler on. Just because of him, everything had to change up and down. WHY WHY WHY????? mind still wonder if its worth it. i really felt so sorry that i had push away my friend appointment and in the end ask them out again. WHAT AM I DOING???? how come life is getting worst?

:'(

2:59am

2009-08-02T04:10:00.006+08:00

4.10am

at last... i complete my present for Pastor and Ting. Had been folding the star since yesterday night. Yesterday Mike accompany me whole day around Singapore to help me find converse shoes, as i want to buy it for Ting as her Birthday present. But at the end did not manage to find what i want. at night we met Shi Hui aka Aunty Ho for dinner. It was than after dinner and shop at Big Bookshop, i went back home and start folding my stars.. 2 night of folding, at last i complete!! :) MISSION ACCOMPLISH! YEAH!!

Oh ya.. what about today? woke up in the morning at 8plus and went to bukit merah to buy a cake. As its Uncle Ming Song's birthday. Reach office at about 9.30am and start working on my video editing. Today the editing i kinda of easy.. maybe is because had done gatecrash for the past few wedding editing. After work, went to vivo to meet ShiHui. As she want to help her bf borrow Sleeping Bag. At vivo, shihui keep on bully me... trying to strangle me!! I think she watch too much of HangOver. Trying to hang me over at vivo. But lucky i still survive. Lolxx...

Anyway it was our 6th time meeting. Haha... and we seems like know each other very long. Amazing!

okie... i shall get to bed now.. else tomorrow's birthday celebration wont be able to attend. tata~ :)

4.20am

2009-07-25T00:46:00.002+08:00

12:46am

Just came back from Changi Airport T3. Today sent si kai and ee jia off to melbourne and brisbane respectivity for study.
Seeing them leave i feel a mixture of sad and happy. Sad because i wont be able to see them in singapore, no more fun time. But happy as i feel glad that they are studying for their uni.

Few days ago i just met si kai and elaine for dinner. It was really a fun time with them at Esplanda. Taking many photo along our way back home. Was so enjoyable. Than today i met his parents. His dad is quite friendly. Talking to me about si kai and how come they are so worry about him at oversea. i felt that his parent are really taking good care of him.

However for ee jia, i feel bad as i only met her once which is on the day she came back singapore. I felt so guilty that not being accompany her while she is in singapore.

After sending sikai off at 9plus, i waited at T3 for ee jia. Due to her flight was being delay, we all went to WANG cafe to had supper, accompanied with her family. They are quite friendly and her aunty was talking to me about studies, while her grandma was telling me bad things of ee jia. LOlxx... than her bro just keep eating toast-bread infront of me. hahaa....

At about 12, we than sent ee jia off at the check point. I saw some of her friends who are with her.. No only bringing a backpack along with her, she still bought a Steamboat cooker back to Brisbane. and it really make me laught!! Lolxx...

Overall, i hope that they will enjoy their life there. Make new friends!

1:01am ( i shall get to bed, gonna wake up at 8am *snorzzzz*)

2009-07-16T23:23:00.001+08:00

我曾懷疑　你在不在我的懷裡
為何幸福　你會哭泣
不忍相愛　結果是你失去自己
曾有一度　讓你離去

風風雨雨　愛又讓我們在一起
我知道你　受了委屈
不能否認　你我原本太多不同
就像日夜擦身而過
用一生去尋剎那的夢

我已決心愛到底　決心不回去
就算一步　就踏進地獄
今生我決不負你　不負你一句
就算你會離去　我　我愛你

2009-06-12T11:59:00.000+08:00

12:01

After come back from market with parents. Weather is super hot! tOok tuna croissant and the new chocolate milk for breakfast.. YUMMY!!

Hmm now i not sure what i shall do at home. Realizing that today skip school and nothing to do at home. Super BORED!
No one is online to chat with... nothing on television for me to watch.. SIAN SIa...

12:10

Waiting for Josephine to confirm the outing for today. Movie or No Movie?? Should i go back school and rot rathe than at home rot? hahah...

2009-06-11T19:35:00.002+08:00

Last day before holiday begin... and i am kinda of bored. Today after my breakfast at canteen 3 than have headach and chest pain... sian.... and now i am seating over at the track and field court looking at my friends running. Hahaha.. i wonder if they are running or walking. While the girls running, the guys are doing their pull up. Lolxx.. and they cant even do one!! super funny.... Oh i wonder what time i can go home.. head super pain... what time Mr Melvin will be leaving school??? waiting and waiting.. LOlxx..

Oh.. my holiday is gonna burn out by all activities... Malaysia trip... School projects.... Video Editing... Work... Hahah.. so many things in my schedule. I need money!!! Oh.. it just few more weeks jia is going to come back singapore! great! shall go out with her soon!! :D

2009-05-21T21:19:00.002+08:00

Time Fly Fast

oKie.. this year is a really busy year for me. School.. Work.. Competition... so many things.. so many projects to complete!! Ahhh.. 1 full year of concentrating on my FYP. new programs, new software, new ideas.. everyday is a brain creaking day. However its still not bad. Know many new friends eg Carine aka Da Jie, Josphine Erh, Valarie, Shawn, Nat, Josphine Chu, Angle... many many.. hahah... everyday having fun and jokes during lunch and dinner.. Hahahah... quite enjoyable :) We still go to play badminton during lunch... also today i cut my hair in the sound studio!!! Amazing man!!! Wan Xin and the other all make a new hairstyle for me. LOlxx..

Its really true that when i start to know new friends, the poly year seems to be ending soon. :)

treasure our friends :)

2009-02-20T05:25:00.002+08:00

What is in mind?

For the past few weeks had been thinking about friendship with ee jia. i hope she had now reach australia smoothly and relaxing over there. i wish our friendship will still continue and forget what had happen in the past. New year new beginning...

Hopefully all this problems will just evolve in my mind. Have a peachful life ahead....

2009-02-20T04:54:00.010+08:00

歌名:你是我一生中最大的驕傲
朋友你可知道
因为你我明了
已得到世界上
最关心的拥抱
还有最好的祈祷
直到天荒地老 
缘份是那么的重要 
太奇妙人群中
是反覆多纷扰
你还在我的怀抱
我要我要你过得比谁都要好
我要你生命是阳光普照
我要我要你站得比天还要高
我要你得到最美丽最完整的回报

你为我苦恼是因为
看到我在苦恼
可知道我微笑
是为了你微笑
你为我煎熬我知道
我会不屈不挠
你已成为我
一生中最伟大的骄傲

歌名:心如刀割

如果今天 我開口說
請原諒我 過去的錯
你楔ㄦ 能夠 接受我對你真情懇求
我愛你 可是我說不出口
因為不該攪亂你的夢
你已經 有了你 幸福歸宿
憑什麼 我還在 這裡奢求
哪一個男人不渴望擁有
一份全心全意的溫柔
看著你 想著你 心如刀割
我還 能做 什麼
a nice song that i came across after some year ago...

2008-12-30T15:09:00.005+08:00

Christmas Sunday

Last sunday was really enjoyable. went for service at RN, seeing chenxi playing on the keyboard and i felt that my mission had accomplish . anYway after service, brought some food and went down to tampinese to visit Po Po and her new house. It was really very beautiful, and nicely renovate. i just cant wait to visit her after new year. It so rare to have a chance to go her house.

Lastly, Danzation video is finally going to over!! WoHOoo... and my holiday is all gone by editing video... uhhhhhhhh.... :( sad case sia..

2008-12-26T00:29:00.003+08:00

Christmas Day

Woke up at about 1pm in the afternoon and came online for awhile before lunch. After lunch, i went out with daddy chan, guan zhou, koh li and zhi yong to orchard shopping. They all accompany me to buy presents and also we went to watch IP Man movie. and i just notice the guys are vey RA loh.. hahah... keep talking about marrage all short of things. Hahah.. but they are also very funny. afTer movie, we went to the japanese cafe to had our dinner. the food there not bad ba.. haha... and we went to the streets to capture some photos. But its super crowed man!! cant take much but stuffy. lolxx... however today quite enjoyable day with them. :)

2008-12-25T00:53:00.003+08:00

Christmas Eve Celebration

Early in the morning 9am, went back to school and do Danzation's Video.. Wa... super no life sia... holiday still need to go back school to edit videos. Ahhh.... study until 6pm than went to Kuarma & Kattle Resturant to have dinner. It was organise by Revival Nation. When there thought i was late, but i reach so early and waiting for the others about 30minutes. The meals cost me a $25(bomb!). WoW... hahaah... did not really feel happy over there.. but weird. hahah.... mind was like thinking if the events can end eariler. At there i also receive present from SJ, and its a hand rest.. haha... Than came back home from there by 123. got stuck on the bus at orchard road. WOhh.. lucky today did not meet daddy chan there.. else will be super crowed.

Reach home around 12am and meet ee jia, as she want to pass me presents. 12.15am, met her at my void deck with jian loong in the car, and she pass me 2 plastic bags of gifts. At first wasnt know what was inside, but after i open her presents, i realise that she start buying me presents since her first job and during that time we are still in a quarrel, so she did not give me until today. After opening the presents, i was speechless, but felt love from her. i not sure how much she treasure our friendship but some how the presents shows somethings. Who can really tell me what is it?? Who are really your friends, and what is friendship??

2008-12-07T23:42:00.008+08:00

Photos Taken during Redcamp 08 and StriWise Competition 08

our teacher incharge, Mr Melvin..
qiao ting and xian hui.. wow.. so concentrate wor..they guys so act sia.. Lolxx

me in the process of showing the studio

and qiao ting disturbing behind.. LOlxx

johnanthan, me and i forget the guy name. Hahah.. but i know he is from SC
we are just playing after duty
issac, another videographer
bored....

alicia, wa.. act dao sia...

me and my Video IC advisor

julian and me
julian, me and leonard

after all the hardwork, its time for us to have fun!! SIG, SC and volenteer

Hmmm actually Red camp i only on duty for like 1day? haah.. was being incharge for the studio shoot and explain about the course to the secondary school student. Kinda of fun, but than in the end i went to took many photos. Lolxxx Its was so fun in the studio of our own. Hahaha.. its really fun out there..

2008-12-06T21:56:00.003+08:00

OHhh.. i just got to finish half of A3A.. Ahhh there are so many projects still not complete. And there are due next week!! oh man!! can time go slower/ can i not be sick so easily? hai...

anyway, last friday just got a very interesting and knowledgable lesson from Mr Samuel aka Mr Tan(who dont want us to call him that, as he feel old.) haha.. In his lesson, we learn about many things about Social Psychology. The main things that strick me and give me a understanding about my last post was the word NORMES. He also give us an example: When an outsider join a group which all members are in the same class. And it was given a test where they are all to place their hand and say what object they feel. If all the members said that the object is a Ball. And when the outsider feel it but its no a ball she/he will still say its a ball. It is because he/she fear/ not being in a group with the others.

Other than this, there are also an example which piss my teacher and i also feel piss was that, when a teacher was being order to teach a 'Special Class with high IQ' and 'Normal' class. At the end of the test, the 'Special Class' score higher than the normal class. However the 'special class' was the students who is the special need student. This also shows that there are more care and concern for the 'special' people. Eg if a teacher was to teach a Express and a Normal stream student. Who do u think she/he will concentrate more? Isnt the Express? as they are the more smart and hardworking students? However in this stituation, wont the students who went into Normal Tech will get depress as their teacher dont even care about their result and no matter how they tried there isnt a light of success? Who say NT student arnt smart/forever naughty? However i felt that its just the public perspective is that if u are not Express stream you are not smart. But to me, whether or not wherever we are at, there must be a light to ur parth. If there are once a Normal Stream student who can get great result and graduate with a Degree. Wont there be a second, third people?? or many many more great success who comes from EM3 / Normal stream?

Lastly, i felt that this lesson gave us some knowledge and idea about this world mindset. What others think in their internal during certain time. hahaha.. quite good. but also heavy assignment sia. Lolxxx :)

Oh man.. lastly, i just watch a MTV of Making a Band. And they interviewed a Christian Youth. Seeing their service its like Ps A.B Bernard church. haha.. its a new youth who form into a band and compose songs. its super cool than while i was surfing than this MTV just attact my attention.. Hahah...

2008-11-29T21:05:00.007+08:00

Count down to holiday... new more weeks of endurance and exam. Yeah... For the past few days on last week, i went to Asia Conference. And Ada went too.. haahah... was so shock to see her there on the last day after the whole finale. But i felt happy for here to be now planting herself in CHC. At there i also saw Miaow as an usher at Hall 10 when i went there on the first day. Than on the last day he saw me at Hall 8 when i was rushing in. Hahah.. Coming back to Asia Conference, i felt that it was a very good conference CHC had organised. It really help us to learn lots of things that we are unable to learn from outside. At one session, i learn about caring lead to success of EV/Growth.

One of the leader of CHC told us about how she start loving her cousin and by passing the love and caring, it grow her CG to about 100?? WOw... it really amaze me and eg how many of the listener can be like them? Start to care for their friends, members? Hahah.. to my certain opinion i felt that sometimes high ranking people just love to be with high ranking people, this may also neglete the low ranking people. Eg when you are a leader or a chair person, will you think and care for your people? Or you will think that loving and caring for them is a waste of time. You will rather join the other leaders and care for each another?

We may always say that not everyone is perfect. However we dont even need to be perfect to love and care for others. Loving others come from our attitude and character. We can listen to many testimony/agree on how people love and care for their friends. But will you start loving them or let them love you first? In the bible you can say: Are you a giver or a taker? During Asia Conference, i felt that the main point of Eving is to love others. Love your friends/classmates.

Go into the culture mandate. Jack Neo once said: In this country there are many people dont notice about love. Eg when their parents call them, child may felt irritating but its an love from their parents. We saw so many video/testi... whether showing love/ caring, is depend on us.

Lastly, congradulate to Ps How for ordain to Rev. :)

2008-10-30T04:05:00.002+08:00

4:05AM

Just half way complete my A3A. Bored.... need to redo the whole bone for my character. Today at last submit the NPD08 video up to the Chairman. Kinda of at last have some air for me to breathe. I am so urge to go for TKD. So long did not go already, wonder how was the kids over there. Hahah.. Marcus had been pestering me of how come i did not go for training. Today was helping Moon to install CS3 to her Mac, than she was asking me back for NP TKD training and taking part in the IVP competition. Kinda of feeling like join, but dont think my steminal can make it. Hahhaah... unless i this few month without fail go for Melvin Sir training. LOlxxx

This few months wasnt a good moment for me. Bored... Stress... Life being mass up.. haizzzz.. Wats up with me man?? Having no Passion for EV. OH MAN!! THAT SHOULD NOT BE ME!! Minds just think of how Ryan teach me about getting rid of my dryness walking with God.

Hmmm... what else to blog?? too much in mind to type out... Just hope life will get better, and i will really grow and be more mature in thinking. Have back my Vision and Dreams.

4:25AM

2008-09-14T02:07:00.003+08:00

cont~ my CG!! B2 rox!!
hal and mE..
hal, me and sulin.. hahah... i am the youngest!!

hoho.. my CG present!
woof woof(zhan) donk donk(tingting)
a shirt bought by marcus, sulin, yan qing and hala birthday card by the celebration team
this is elaine's SIA airplane!! LOlxx

2008-09-14T01:17:00.006+08:00

Birthday Presents!!! by my CG!!
a shirt by MacOmm and jacket by worship team!! :)
min qian wrote me a card!!
hah... the is donk donk... ting ting gave to me!! by bro bought me a wallet!
a birthday card by the team who celebrate with me!

my BirthdaY celebration

Way toward Clerk Quay Pub

havINg our Dinner at a romantic place THE Sushi Tei!

aT last, its time for me to blog about what happen on my birthday... hMmmm morning and afternoon actually doing nothing but sleep. its until night, went to meet elaine at 7pm and realise that there are so many people waiting for me at Sushi Tei. Lolxx.... there are Marcus, Min Qian, Elaine, Ting Ting, Su Lin, Su Jun and Zhi Han. They are all so funny... chOosinG a romantic place.. Muahah.. we toOk lots of photos and they shock me by giving me the birthday cake outside the MRT station. LOlxx.. so many ppl!! SHY SHY!! Lolxxx... than the second shocking is that they brought me to pubbing, which i actually think that i wont be able to go this year. but they make my wish come true twice. Which is help me organise birthday party and go pub. Lolxx.. oh man.. they are really very nice sia... however unable to celebrate with some of the Czoner as they are having exam. But its alright :) maYbe can still go out with them after their exam. Hahah... This weeK really receive lots of present and cakes from my churchmate. They are so haPpening... yesterday CG went to Da Chang Jing eat.. OH man.. my stomach (''Chang'') is really going to come out loh.. stomach ach like siao.. hahah... ting still laugh at me and aiky, and today she 'TIO'.. haha also stomach ach. LOlxxx... ok.. i think i will put more photos than type.. LOlxx... tk care guys! and thank you for celebrating my BIrthday! its really a memoriable 21st birthday! :)

2008-08-26T21:32:00.003+08:00

MORNING PRAYER!!

yeah!! LOOK LOOK!!! Its the 'end' of the 2 weeks Morning Prayer... and both me and Marcus got our StarBuck Voucher.. And if u had went continuiously for the prayer everyday.. OH man.. its really very cooL... and life changes. Felt different in the life.. WoHooo... hahhaa... and every morning we just get out of our bed at 5am to go for Prayer. YeaH!! See.. We CAN!! that mean You CAN toO!!! :) hahaah.... MorninG praYer realLy is Fantastic!! :) Met Ps Yoshi... saW danIEl... MieOw... Ryan...Hong Hui... except did not see Jian Min and May.. hahah... where are they??? are u Guys at MornINg praYer toO?? :) How is everyone exAms? doIng great? O Level PHS!! JIA YOU for ur PRELIM!!! :)

2008-08-26T21:05:00.007+08:00

Ritz Calton Overnight Stay

At Suntec Fountain

Spending a whole night at Ritz Calton hotel. Kinda of fun at the beginning as my brother and Cousin was there... we watch firework... went up to the Club and swimming pool. Lolxx. However before that... went out with Aiky and TingTing to Suntec to get Pastor's graduation present. having fun with them.... :) than Aiky brought me a dougnut hahah... my CGL so nice. haha... then they all accompany me to carrfor to get snack. and we all head to Subway to eat.. and the food really very fulling.. :) it was than after that i separate with them and went my way to Ritz Calton. :)

2008-08-26T20:58:00.002+08:00

Top 10 Photos of August on PHOTOBOOTH

haha... this guys are funny... LOlxx.. they are just enjoying their time taking photos... :)

2008-08-20T09:06:00.002+08:00

Update of yesterday and today

my 2nd sticker gotten yesterday!!
yeah!!! today got my 3rd sticker!!

hahah.. this is sulin while teaching O level yesterday. photo taken by Jason

yeah... today went for my 3rd days of Morning Prayer at HoGc. It was fantastic even thought i am tired. Saw Miaow again as he was an Usher today. :) hahah... i felt he is such a cheerful and funny guy. Hahah...

Hmm let me talk about yesterday... we had our Morning Prayer with Ps Tan. And during prayer, i saw the guy who lead chinese prayer everytime at CHC chinese service. Lolxx.. He pray in CHINESE!! Lolxx... oh man.. and i understand! :) Just could not believe if next time RN will have chinese serivce. and i will be there praying and playing my Keyboard!... LOlxx...thats so funny man.. Hahah.. Than after the prayer, we went to mac at SingPost, where we met IVAN at the entrance. Oh man.. and ting ting was so excited and called elaine..while marcus and me are like 'uh huh'??? Muhahha.. aiyoooooo.... ting ting ar... Hahahaa....Also we saw many leaders, eg Garette and Wendy. Lolxx.. where marus and me will WoHooo.... mind thinking *aii... chenxi did not come* :P hahaah...

Afternoon than we to accompany Elaine to eat during her lunch hours.. LOlxx me so good sia.. :) After coming back church, i pack up my stuff and went with Sulin to AMK as she need to teach PHS O level, while i study at there...And the Drilling at AMK Hub was very NOISY!!! I wonder how they can study sia.. LOlxx.. at 8pm, most of them when back home, than sulin and zhi ying went out.. haha... me was so bored so shop at AMK Hub.. haa.. but more bored.. LOlxx..

And what about today?? I went to HoGc to have my Morning Prayer again!! It was being led by Ps Aries. :) it was a great prayer.. hhaha... okok.. i gtg and study already :) see ya...everyone do weLL for exam!! :)

2008-08-18T20:49:00.005+08:00

UpDate of my photos album....

Desmond, yan qing and mE!!

Ace, nana and me!! hahah... their mouth bigbig... aHHh....

First few photos that i realise that is in my photobooth Hahah.... And it was very funnny!!! They use my computer and took their funny phtos... Muahahha....

Introducing NANA!!

eye so big sia!!!!

Introducing Halena!! Haha... Zhi Lian...

2008-08-18T20:14:00.004+08:00

First day of MORNING PRAYER :)

my prayer card!!
yeah.. i gotten my first sticker!! :)

Yeah today i wokE up at 5.20am by marcus. As we were meeting ting, su and sikai for morNing Prayer at Heart Of God Church. Hahah.. reaCh HoGc at 6.45am and saw many adults and students walking into the gate.. Hahah.. It was so cool sia.. So many people woke up so early for the Morning Prayer. Hahaha... And Oh mAn.. i saw ashely!! Hahah.. He waS the guy who i EV 1 year ago!! And now he was serving in CHC!! LOlxxx... even thought he was not in RN now, but i was glad that he was save in CHC! :) hahah...

When i entered in HoGc, it was so amaze that i saw my NPNG friends.. haha at the reception table i saw Hong Hui(the drummer).. and next i saw Mao(Photographer) hahah...Ooppsss spell his name wrongly, is call Miaow.. Hahaha... moRning Prayer was awesome!! Pastor Aries was the prayer leader.. Haha.. and they saw a nice song! :) but si kai left early because of NS and ting ting was not there as she woke up late... :( After the prayer, me, marcus and su was seating beside the cafe, and we get to know Ps Yoshi who was from Japan. hahah... and he was a Piano teacher!!! Haah.. oh man.. if i am able to learn from him.. WooHooo.. :) cant wait for tomorrow's morning prayer! :)

2008-08-17T02:04:00.004+08:00

today went so early..... to SP for the Nike Run 10x briefing. Oh man.. actually the meeting start at 2pm and i was there with ada at 11plus?? Lolxxx.. its like siao loh.. ahahha.. i did not really sleep yesterday after watching the CHC sermon. today half dead everywhere i go.. haha.. however, today while i was reading my bible of Luke 13, i than was unsure about 'The Narrow Road'. What does it mean? So as usual, i will message Chenxi for help.

When i reach church at about 4plus, and Chenxi with the leaders reach at 6plus. She explained to me about The Narrow Road. How most of the people will prefer walking on the broad road than narrow road. After explaintion, i than realise that walking in a narrow road need its like giving up what you use to want to do but because of God, you concentrate on what He want you to do and which is good for you.

Then it came into a conclusion that if we walk in a broad road, we will be focusing on lots of things but not on the important stuff, which in the end lead to Nothing is being done greatly. However walking in the narrow road, you are being focus on what is great and eternal. And at the end, it will lead you to Success! :) Oh man.. its like if we now endure on the narrow road, and in few years time, we will have a eternal success. WOaahoooo!! I can just imaging its like Uniform group man.. Hahah... Endure in the beginning, than when NCO relax le... :)

2008-08-17T01:52:00.002+08:00

OkIe.. and here is my character design modeling. Hahah... hMmm after looking so long.. does it look like daryl NAh?? Muahah.. the army boy.. Hahah...

OopPss.. i promise yan qian to model out her character... haha.. will do it soon.. :)

2008-08-17T01:23:00.007+08:00

update on some drawing that i drew on mid-night while accompany yvonne at the macdonal studying and my lab top is down. So no choice.. draw loh... hhahaa.. haah... in here, there are some drawing of a small superman boy, farmer, and a guitarist 'aiky' but dont look like sia.. muahah

Ohh.. here is some drawing that i drew it randomly.. haahh... can u spot a gun somewhere?? haha...

2008-08-16T05:18:00.003+08:00

WoW it is alReady 5.30AM! hahah.. i just fiNIsh listening to Ps Tan chiNese Sermon online. This is my second time listening to his chinese sermon and i felt annointing and also his sermon is super coOl. In this sermon, Ps Tan spoke to us about a topic on 生命与光（下). And he talk to us about how in the first place God create women to have a good life with man. But when satan came, he destroy it. Its like when the wife called the husband and ask about his work, and what time is he coming back home. Instead of husband being fill with love, but he will tell his wife how come she is so irritating?

Later on, Ps Tan describe to us about a bible fact of our life. Thousand years ago, when adam was born, his life span was until 930 years old. And than follow on to his sons the life span decrease. it was than until the Noah, God had a 40 days of rain and most of the people dead. But left Noah. But until than, after that life was bring down to 200 years old. (Oh MAn... hopefully i am explaining the correct thing... hhahah as chinese, i cant really translate. but i tried my best. :) hahahh...)

On top of this facts, what i most remembered was that he describe to us about our relationship to God is like a leaf on the stem. When the leaf is with the stem, it will grow beautifully. But when it drop/disconnect from the stem, in the first 3days you are still able to see it nicely but after 3 days it will turn brown and dead. Its like our life with God, when we are with God, we felt the love of Him. If we leave Him, beginning we might felt life is better and we might think without God its more easier to live, but after 3months, our life will turn as bad as the brown leaf.

At the end of the sermon, Ps Tan once again remind/encourage us on not giving up our walk with God and also not walking far away from Him. We should read our bible daily and get close to Him eg how the leaf is so close to the stalk/stem. Its really a very powerful sermon he had preach. Hahha... hopefully i am able to have more time to see more of his sermon. OR one day should go down for chinese service. Muahahah.... gtg and sleep le.. gd Night everyone!! :) CHeeR!! :)

2008-08-13T22:16:00.004+08:00

Update of photos taken on tuesday night...

2008-08-12T21:51:00.001+08:00

just did one pic while listening to the song by true worshipper. its super impacting:)

2008-07-28T03:04:00.004+08:00

Photos Update

Went out with ITE mate to Sentosa on sunday afternoon while i am still sick. muahah... too bad. dont have any photo of mine at the beach playing.. Hahah...

Dont know who capture me while i eating..

aHhhh... i am falling down.... so high!!!!
ouR cute min qiaN!!

End~

i found this while bringing NANA to see doctor at 11PM!!! haha.. such an late hours.

Below is all photos took at SP.
when there to meet marcus, delbert and wei liang for lunch. together bring along desmond. This guys really make me laugh at the Kofu food court.

this is delbert.. hahah... being capture by me.. muahhaah
End~

a gift by sulin.. haha she gave it to me during worship prac.. lolxxx. and wrote me word.. :) thanks su lin. Actually i am also a words person. Muhahha..

lastly, this is a pack of Pocky gave by yan qing. Not sure how come she buy for me, but i feel love after she buy me this pocky. haha.. it can entertain me the whole night. :) thanks yan qing!

2008-07-27T23:46:00.003+08:00

NP Piano Concert at Esplande Hall

YaHoooo... At last i reach home already. Hahah.. Today went for service late as last night couldnt sleep well. After sermon at about 2.15pm, i rush my way off to City Hall Control Station to meet Ada who is my senior in Video. We both went to a Piano Concert at Esplande for Video Shooting. It was so amazing that i found out actually we both some how like the same interest. Eg Sound, Video. haha.... during the concert we both were just playing out way off beside the sound system. It was kinda of fun and enjoyable evening learning from her. Hopefully will get more chance to learn from her more about video shooting and editing. :)

Than in the concert hall, i some how saw Shan Loong walking to the seat infront of me. But i not sure if it was him. So i smsed him. Hahah.. after the whole concert had ended, we than realise that we were in the same concert hall. We both at last met out for a drink at Makan Sutra after such a long time had not seen each other. It was nice chatting with him and talking about our gang of friend during sec school days while having tuition at this place. Hopefully we can meet out again before he go in for NS. :) Kinda of tired.... Next week still have lots of events going on. Hahah... oh man.. now i think of my projects... sure can finish de:) haha.. else Su Lin will kill me man.. I havent complete her website yet. Hhahaha....

ok i gtg already. Tk care guys. Enjoy my day today. :)

2008-07-25T17:09:00.007+08:00

Past Project of 3D Modeling & Digital Audio Design Testing of using Maya
Soccer Ball Face Modeling

Car Modeling

A Video of Car Modeling

Placing sound into the video using Pro Tools

Thats all... Hopefully have more modeling or video coming up during holiday. :)

2008-07-25T06:06:00.002+08:00

GoOd Morning eveRybody!! hahah... its 6am!! i just came back from BM Mac. LOlxxx went out to accompany Sis Von the whole night.. initally wanna do my project.. buT..... software spoil.. Sian.... start drawing some of the character to entertain myself. Lolxx.. buT its really fun having outside during mid night. Kinda of love to enjoy my midnight after since very long did not spend night at outside chit chatting. At Mac, actually i think Sis Von was being disturb by my voice.. LOLxxx.. me cant stop talking. HAhahaha... sO every moment will hear my voice. haha... at abOut 5am, Sis vOn went to buy Hot Cake & Sauage breakfast and we share that meal.. LOlxx..its kinda of filling. :) EnjoYing~

2008-07-18T12:40:00.003+08:00

12:50pm, was alone in church. I research on Ps Cho Yonggi N was reading about Threefold Blessing. in part 3 i came across a topic of The Blessing To Be In Health. Below is a part of what Ps Cho had said about health.

Maintaing Health

Just as important as being healed of an illness, maintaining one's health is of utmost importance. From a biblican viewpoint, shall examine what we must do in order to keep our health.

1) Do Not Sin
When we have faith in the benevolence of God, and Christ Who carried our sins and died on the Cross, we can experience divine healing. By accepting the Holy Spirit into the vessel we have prepared, making our bodies the temples of God where He resides, the devil who brings illnesses will not be able to approach nor enter into us.

2) Release Stress
First, we must fully understand the principle of life: where we come from, why we live, and where we are headed. These are the questions which all of must answer satisfactorily to ourselves. When we find the answers to these questions, we can be freed from the elements of this world which bind us and cause stress to build up.

Second, we must unburden our heavy load to Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ promised to take charge of all our worries and fears.

Third, we can maintain our health when we work for six days and rest on the seventh, in accordance with the law of Sabbath which even God applied when he created this world.

Fourth, we must strengthen our inner selves. When we maintain a warm relationship of love with our families, friends and neighbors, our inner selves will be strengthened. In addition, when we depend upon and trust the Holy Spirit, our weak minds transform into ones of strength and we acquire new abilities and power.

3) A Life Filled with the Holy Spirit
The greatest secret to maintaining physical health is to fill oneself with peace and happiness. Especially for the modern man, doctors have reported that over 70% of illnesses arise from nervousness and emotional distress. The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Peace. The key to being happy and peaceful emotionally, which in turn keeps the body healthy, is to always acknowledge, welcome, accept and trust in the Holy Spirit.

-by Ps Cho Yonggi
adapted from http://english.fgtv.com/gospel/Threefold4.htm

2008-06-29T19:45:00.003+08:00

An upDate of recent Photos and Gift that i had received....

Just found an picture we toOk at the previous Sentosa Outing... we are havIng fun at the Games...This is the 3rd letter from cheNXi Jiejie, and now she gave me a small toy.. its super cute. Hmm .. wanna call it Meow Meow. haha.. ohHh.. it can accompany HamHam, a small soft toy that is in the church office.. LOlxxa Closer look at Meow Meow.. hahah CUTE right??
This is a gift from SU.. hahaah.. she pass me this. As i always play with Aaron on this game.
And this, is from Su Lin, she wrote me a letter too and also brought me 2 t-shirt. Hahah.. Kinda of tight fit. hoWever its nice.

I just wanna thanks them for writting letters to me. i am so touch that they wrote me letters and buy me gift... haha..

2008-05-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

iTs anOther lasT day of the month, recently life and emotions are getTing unstable. dOnt know why, but just feeL likE running aWay. presSure? maybe not....stRess? not Sure.. fOr the pasT few days, i feLt that when sIs voN is not around my life seems empty. tHe feeLing is like when your closes friends/ your mum is not around with you, when you are finding people to talk to/ be with you.

On YesTerDay, when with RN member to HoGc for a Seminar with Pastor Tan Ye Ping. A great and annointing 2nd Pastor of the Largest Church in Singapore. I learn alot from him during the sermon. Expecially about the word P.U.S.H which means Pray Until Something Happen. A story of the period of how a mother give birth. How God create Man from dust, than Woman create from Man, than from Woman(Mary) comes out Man(Jesus), than with Man + Woman become many Man and Woman. And lastly with Man + Woman + God = Eternal life with God.

Plus, today Pastor CJ a great Pastor from Revival Nation preach about Confident. How if we do not have confident we wont have faith. If we dont not have confident in our work it will be a failure. aNd also i saw min Qian comIng up stage to share her testimony, saying out how she change her sinful habit. It really took her a big confidence speaking infront of so many people. Seeing her grow and having a changing life, i felt great and hapPy for her.

2008-05-24T21:44:00.002+08:00

YesterdaY at Ngee Ann Poly did my lAst day of I&E selling Ben & Jerry Ice Cream. Hahah.. brought back 2 ice cream for ChenXi Jiejie and Pastor. Than also get to know Chenxi jiejie sister, CIndy. Hahah.. she is kinda of funny. Hmm the only thing i can discrible her is Cheerful. She everytime laught..hahah.. and also make me Laught Out Loud. haahah... its kinda of funny talking to her. But she everytime like very busy lei.. muHahaha... Hopefully we can get to meet each other soon. hahaa... yeAh Cindy? Lolxxx...

2008-05-06T14:50:00.004+08:00

CWPM(Church-Wide Prayer Meeting)

On last sunday, it was Pentacost Day! At Revival Nation, we had our CWPM contain of 2 session. Even thought i am tried on that day, but it was fun. At about 11plus, Pastor led the Praise and Worship songs. I was playing the keyboard. I felt tremble, as it was a sudden change of songs. Aiky was standing beside me, helping to figure out the chords. However i also feel that it was a challenge for me to play with the flow and draw down the annointing. After Praise and Worship, Pastor pray for me and some leaders. I felt the presence of God and i was fall on the floor. God speaks to me through visions. Telling me about my life of changing and my Goal that he had gave me, and it did not just end here. Few minutes later, came up and walk to the back of the room. Keening down on the floor, stretching out my hands and worship God. Seeing the faith i had, Pastor quickly command Raymond to lay-hands on me, without any minutes of delay. I manifest on the floor, and my vision continue. God spoke to me again. It was so amazing!

At about 4plus, i stayed on for session 2. Where i actually should be going for my music lesson. After Pastor had preach some words, we were separated into our groups. We spoke to our leaders about how God touches us and what he spoke to us. I was glad that life changes after that day. They started wanting to do their QT and get their life closer to God. And for me, i start my life to do my QT starting of each day. Having God in the beginning of the day.

Starting back my QT life

On today, 4am i woke up to do my QT. I beginning to listen and sing worship songs, presence of God falls on me. It wasnt as strong as CWPM, but i know God was with me. I started to speak to God, talk to Him. And when i open my bible, God really speak to me. Because the Verse strick my mind, and it was from Mark 9: 23b "Anything is possible, if a person believes". Its so true that God is telling me something in my life that is leading to my Vision. And i did not slept while reading my bible, but feeling interesting to continue reading it.

However after my QT, problems came. It somehow changes my emotions, but i just felt that this time round i using a different attitude to solve the problems. Its really kinda of my first times solving problems in different attitude. However i just wanna my life with God getting better, moving on in my music degree and earning lots of money to help church building a World Class Church. aiyoo....devil is so mini, God can do anythings to cast out devil from us. Amen!!

2008-05-03T11:51:00.002+08:00

Affluence and Influence Conference 2nd May 2008

Today moring i woke up late and went to school by cab, which give me a hole in my pocket. haha.. in the afternoon i came back home do some work before i ran off to church to do the bulletin design. At about 5.30pm, all the worship band member arrive. We had our practise until 9plus. However Sis Von asked us to pack up and go in to the office. She asked us about our QT and our life being with God. I realise many of them were doing well with their walk and QT, but not me. It had been weeks of struggling with my relationship with God. On my way back home, i was thinking about my walk with God and somethings is wrong with me. Why Sis von did not scold me for not doing QT? Is it because i was unchangeable? I was keep thinking in my mind. On the other hand, i was messaging Ryan about AI Conference. He told me it was really great, Dr Clement preach to them and he learn alot from him. Than while we were talking, ryan heard about my stuggling in my life. When i got home to cook for my dinner, he message and told me if i was online.

After dinner at about 1plus, i went in online, and i was shock that ryan was still online waiting. He spoke to me about how he have the same problem before and how he overcome with prayers. But not only that, i was amaze that he told me when he first become a christian, his leader sent him 5Gb of christian songs so that he can worship with it daily. Learning from his leader, Ryan told me that when i am in school, he is going to sent me Christian songs too, and also sent me the notes that i had miss on the AI Conference. I was so amaze by what he had did. A person full of Fire in him having a worshipping life. Before he left the conversation for his QT, he too recommend me a songs to listen and sing with my heart. U.R.Y- Hillsong. I really want my Fire with God will come back. Its like what Sis Von had said, when i starts to have a great life and relationship with God, i not only walk with God, but i will Fly! Doing great things for Him. Getting back my EV life!!!

2008-05-02T02:38:00.002+08:00

Affluence To Influence Conference 2nd May 2008

In the morning about 10am, i woke up to prepare my journey to RN for discipleship class. Reaching there at about 11.15am, Chenxi came to tell us to pray in tongues. So i took my Mp3 to pray near the keyboard, which is also my favourite place! Hours late, while everyone was praying, my stomach starts to pain. It was so pain that i went to the cafe to seat down. I couldnt endure the pain as it was a very sharp pain poking into my stomach. But than when Chenxi came to layhands on me, i felt abit better. It was than minutes later, it starts to pain again. My mind was thinking if i should continue and go for the conference. But in the end, i went with them.

Arriving at HoGc, i was very excited as i see many NPNG people e g Ryan, May, Jian Ming, and one more guy i forget his name but only can reconise that he is a camera man. hHaaa.. It was very awesome over at the AI conference. Pastor How spoke about how we need to become a World Class Church. Being both at Idealism and Realism. He spoke about Idealism VS Realism, Romantic Idealism VS Pragamtic & Materialistic Realism. Not only that, but a 5 levels of Maslow's scale of human needs. Pastor How also preach to us that as a students, we must study hard in school. Doing great in our results and also being like a samaritan. How we will react when a half-dead man come to us? Will we sent him to the hospital, pay all the bill for him, and give all the needs he need? This passage really touches my heart, it really shows me how i should really study hard, having a relationship with God and becoming a samaritan woman.

The conference did not just end in this way, before the evening session. Pastor How invite his sister to say her testimony. This was my first time seeing her and knowing that she was the CFO of Mediacorp. If u really listen to her testi, i will brow you away. In a worldly mind, we will thought that she make her way to become a CFO is because of her hard work in studies. But its not that! She had gone throught a great suffer in her young life and life was ups and down, indeed mostly depression/unhappiness. Also at the session 2, before the interwiew with Dr Clement(CEO of Freely), his wife Nico(CEO of CozyCot.com) and Ps How's sister(CFO of Mediacorp). Nico was invited to go up stage to speak about her life changes after knowing God. She came prepare with papers, but on the stage, she close the book with testi. And speaks to us about how her life really changes. It was really amazing, as she speaks all words with her whole heart. And how she become a CEO of CozyCot.com and won many awards. In the interview, i remember Dr Clement said this, we must have the GPS: choose the right GOD, Pastor and Spouse. 3Ps: Preparation, Perseverence and Passion. We must become Nothing -> Something -> EVERYTHING! Lastly in the session, i learn that we must Dream God's Dream, having heart of Thanksgive and a softheart heart for God to come into me.

www.Cozycot.com <= wonderful website for every ladies.
Love God, Love Other, Love Life

2008-05-02T02:14:00.002+08:00

PassIon paRty 1st May 2008

Yesterday, after school at 1pm, ting called me and she appear in my school. So i ran after IS meeting to meet her, marcus and halena at cheers. We were seating down talking while helana went back class for lesson. After some hours, i went back to class to get my bag. Together with Yibin and Weiliang, they accompany me to orchard Ngee Ann City kino to get a Japanese book for Jian Min. When we reach there, weiliang and Yibin went to help me search for the book and it was so funny that at the same row yibin couldnt find the book but weiliang manage to. And both of them were like claiming for reward. hahahxxx.... We then spend mintes in the store browsing at the design books. At about 5plus, we went to Cineliasure IApple shop to explore at the MacAir. After minutes of having fun at the IApple shop, we head down to Kallang to meet the others of my friend for Passion Party. A total of 6 newcomers i had brought from Ngee Ann Poly. It was so amazing, before the event starts we all were seating down at prata shop to chit chat. There were Adrian, WeiLiang, YiBin, Alicia, Ying Leng, Rui Ping. All of them were from different course but get to chat together. The girls were sure loud.. haha.. they can talk and talk, joke here and there.. haha... However the most important is that they were having fun at the Passion Party.

Last of all, its great to know you guys expecially Adrian, who i never met since after 3 years ago at work and the midnight count down beside pub. For the girls, i hope to see u all again at service or any outing. Its fun being with u all! For the MMA Guys, Weiliang and YiBin, hope that you both will join us at outing again. Lastly, maY God give you dreams and touch ur life that you had never been ever. ChEeR! :)

MMA

2008-04-20T21:17:00.004+08:00

MMA Orientation 14 - 18 April 2008

First day back to MAC level, reaching school kinda of know lots of new classmates. Expecially Jack, haha... the whole day she was being disturb by me. And also knowing some friends from IM eg Carine, Hannah, Silviy, Nathline. Jack was in the same group as in during the mini-project with the year 1. We both are in the G2, with some years 3, 2 and 1. Eg Ben korkor, Gerald, Jia Ren and also some year 1 eg, Fion, Carldia(Caw-deer), Alex, Leonard. This 4 youngest were super quite. Seldom like talk de.. I remember Leonard thought me and Jack know each other very long ago. But actually i only know her for eg few hours before i met the year 1. This whole week was kinda of a fun time with the year 1. Hopefully we can meet out soon.. hahah... cHill!!

2008-03-23T22:34:00.005+08:00

MMA 1MO1 Class Gathering

17th March 2008

wEnt out with a few of my classmates for class gathering, and Khalis book a arab resturant. We all met about 7pm at bugis and walk a super long road to the resturant which is near The Concourse. Lolxxx... if i know i will meet them there instead. haha.. and during the gathering, Jing Hui super quiet.. haha.. act coOl ar.. this time round the there was kinda of more people turn up for the gathering compare to the previous one. haha.. and at the end, we hang out at Bugis and walk to Paradis Centre to had supper.. LOlxxx

2008-03-23T20:55:00.004+08:00

Leader's Retreat 2008

20th - 22th March

halena pOsting to camera. Jassie emo ar?? lol aHhh halena took my phone and capture her own image!!!
hmm that is me?? who took one??
hahah this is funny pic i took while they both were trying to climb down the rock to the beach. LOlxx than Jassie fall down, hitting her bud.

Day 1

This morning, i actually should report to church to carry the camp stuff at 9am. However due to hanging out at late night too many time, tio PO loh. sian..... waited for my parEnt to go Out than i rush my way off to SENTOSA Palawan Beach to meeT the thE girLs. its kinDa of exCited, becauSe i just lOve to go to BeaCh to plaY and relax. Its such a nicE place foR chiT chaT and relax ur mind. At aBout 4plus, which Pastor was havIng sessIon 1 with us at the Beach. We receive calLs from the sec school and working adults that they are reaching. So we proceed our waY to the caMp site and meeT theM. beFore diNner at abouT 7plus, we all weNt to the beach to toOk some photos and we saW many angels surround us. so cOOl sia.. amd alsO we had 2 sessIon froM 11.45pm to 4am? hahaa i think so.. hoWever the sessIons Pastor had gave was real and understandable. It can changes a person's life. Eg Fighting with Spiritual Warfare, how we can have Confident Culture and Character. The steps in Confident: Seat, Walk, Stand. and hoW we must have humility. i remember durIng our worship, i cry out to God and ask Him to open up my heart and ley me free the presence of God. aNd instanly i feel his Presence and peace in me. During that night, i couldnt slEep, dont know why.. however i was just seating on the floor beside JasSie's bed.

Day 2

eVeryone woKe up at 8am to tOok theIr breakfast... and its not only breakfast, but kinda of a game breakfast which Sean and Zhi Han thought of. Eg in 30second u must spread a set of bead for ur partner and seat down. If u did not seat down you will be call out to get sabo.. and buckets of water will be pour on you. the most funny one was when sean pour down the water from level 2 and aim at Zhan. LOLx.. after our breakfast, we all brought 2 air dophine to the beach and continue the game. the 2nd game was where you have to select 2 volenteer and they will be brought to somewhere far for sometime. during the time, the rest of the member will think of some act in either movie or superhero for the 2 volenteer to act. If he/she fails to act out, they will be push into the beach and follow what the actions is like. Its like of funny game. Jason and me were bring call out to act 'Sparter' at the sea. And its super funny doing kicking at the sea.

On the 3rd game, its the 'Mutaput'. Its kinda of a funny game. And next was 4th game,where its split into 2 groups. From there one person will seat on the dophine, while others will holiding on to the dophine and fight against their opponent to make their dohpine falls. anyone whos hand were off the dophine will be kick out.

After the games, we stay at the beach doing out QT. And it was awesome. God speaks to me using the Bible and telling me that, if you didnot do what God had told you and did not follow his words, you are just placing a name of beiang aChristian. However in t he End Time, God wont reconise you. After our QT, we went back campsite for our BBQ!!! There were lots of great food we had BBQ and also the creativty of Jason, Daryl and Chenxi, which was the BBQ Banana+Mashmallow. LOLxxx... AT abouT 4.45pm we had our seSsion again!! yeaH!! and now Pastor was teaching us about the Sheperd's heart. at about 7.15pm, we rush off to the Musical Fountain, were we watch the 'Music of Sound' its was cOOl!!! amazing! haaa and plus the LUGE ride.. i got knock by Jason who is videoing behind me.. haha... and our Dinner was subwaY! yuMmy... and we tOO also continue ouR last 2 seSsion at 11pm.

Last Day

We all woke up at 8am to pack our bags, and tOok breakfast. And i will always want to eat the Bisket with milo!! hahah.. we than process to the bus and got back to church for service run-throught. and after service, some memeber stay back to watch movie in church. Its was a feeling like 'family'. However i too tired and went back home with Chris and Elaine.

However i will like to pray for daryl, chenxi, regina and also those who are sick. I pray to God that He can sent His angels to protect them and heal their sickness fast. In Jesus Name, they wont suffer from sickness but heal and get better in health. Amen!

2008-03-19T04:06:00.004+08:00

19/03 wednesDay

afTer readIng chEnxI jiE jiE's blog, i feLt kinda of motivated by what she had wrote. The words toward God and how passionate of how she wanna her life to be with God and lay her life down for her disciple. Winning souls, and also having great disciple. seeing heR grOw so faSt in the houSe of God at just the age of 15. ohMan... iTs so phemomenent!! anD few hours agO i just read aBout of benin Hienn, a very famous book 'The Annointing'. Read the first 2 chapter of it, and it was super coOl. Its will blows ur mind off man. In the Book it also say some real life story in his booK 'GOod moRning, Holy Spirit'. In this bOOk, you will know about what is hoLy sPirit, and how he can being real to us. in acTually truth, we can communicate with Holy sPirit, and also we can feel the annointing of God however its not 'goosebumb' feeling, but a feel where all yOur confusion will be blow away. itS really a greaT bOok recommended. God, i pray that you wilL shoWs me the waY how you touches beNin hInn liFe. thE way how he geT thE annoInting and hoW life changes. How he can heal peoPle. i praY that you can leT me wIn manY souLs foR you. Using me in wiNnIng soul of the peOPle you want to. LoRd i praY thAt you wilL grOw RN in multiple of souLs save. moRe hunger in salVation. thE waY how you multiple in HoGc. alSo a neW place foR RN. biGgeR place and confortable place for us to wOrshIp you. i praY for every members in RN to have a worshiP life wiTh you, abLe to take in discIpleship, havIng neW salvation, and alsO build in culture. alsO foR chEnxi jiEjie, i pray that her prayer will be comIng real sOon, more than 30 souLs will be save under her zOne. and grew her becomIng strOng leader, leading many young teenage. fOr sis von and PasTor, that theiR disciPles will multiple, disciple bring up church culture, holdIng on to dying children, healing them. i PraY that RN will grOw as what you want it to be. havIng a stRong church that is crazy for you. In JesuS naMe, Amen!!! :)

2008-03-16T02:37:00.003+08:00

15/03 Sermon on Worship
Today's sermon was actually super great! Pastor CJ preach about worship. Its the 3rd part after Thankgiving and Praise. In the sermon, i realise that we have to be pure and open our true self to God. Worship him with our heart, bow down to him and lay postrate. During worship, you just cant stop yourself concentrating on God, but to draw close to Him more and more. Opening up your heart, letting Him speaks into your life. You just wants to keep on staying under the presence of God. Tears flows our from your eyes, knowing that God is there with you. Annointing was strong. Even the Worship Team plays well. Everyone in the room was worshipping. Lastly an round Applaus for Chenxi, as she stood for the whole service playing on the keyboard. It was her first time, however she was doing so great despite of the panic and the laugh of mine at the audi. LOLX.

It just take 2 to grow in B1.

2008-03-14T02:18:00.004+08:00

A Place of Love
Living in the same Vision
Growing with Passion
Love Life, Love God, Love People
This is where i call FAMILY!